Listening to your heart vs head....
What fascinates me is the human behaviour, despite it being 2022, we are still some of us in a mindless state. Rich, poor, educated, uneducated. All walks of life there are people awakened and some not. Destroying our lives, others and the planet, the plants, the animals and oceans etc. In denial of our true hearts desires (as cheesy as that sounds! Bare with me).
As a women we are biologically wired to breed, but as a soul we often having a knowing that perhaps motherhood isn't for us, perhaps even marriage, but we still live in an age where this is often still “expected”. Yet, we are also expected to have careers, perhaps this is driven among females rather than collectively. Some women not knowing or having any confidence to do anything different fall down the motherhood route, living a life unfulfilled and unhappy, continuing this pattern onto her children. This old fashioned idea of women “serving the man”, personally I like a team effort, or if you're like me, have a knowing to be a leader, to be an Ambassador of the Divine Feminine Goddess Energy, then “the man”, if there is one in your/my life, kinda needs to serve me. As in keep me bright and efficient to keep leading the way for others to not fall down those human conditioning traps, to be their truth, to be radically honest about who they were meant to be while in the human body.
We go to school that is full of false teaching, yes, it's great to learn about maths, geography etc, but there is such lack of finding your truth, passions and following them. I found school crushing, it crushed my brothers light and didn't do mine much good, this hum drum, follow “the system” bullshit.
What is “normal” anyway, there is what has been and expected and now slowly anything goes.
I have tried to fit into a box my whole life, jumping out of it for a bit, being my star shaped self, for it to be rejected, so back in the box I go, always feeling miserable and knowing it wasn't for me, but now I am returning to my star shaped self and doing everything I can to never get back in that box or any box for that matter, even if it upsets a few people around me. I feel a life not lived is worse than the fate of death.
I have come across too many men that are told by someone they were merely casually dating that there is a baby on the way, this transforms and can destroy a man's light/life for the rest of his days, he has to live with the fact he is in a situation he never expected and perhaps even wanted. He was not asked for his consent and the woman just “assumed”(human conditioning) that he should step up, and be the dad, the provider. So the man, perhaps a little programmed himself, steps up and delivers, living a life of resentment and regret, self loathing etc. Yet, when a man turns away he is demonised, why should he be, it's the woman's responsibility for the child's safety and well being, not his. She needs to find someone that does want to have that responsibility. She did not seek his consent, or ask if he was even READY to be a Dad or provider. So why is he demonised, this is so wrong to me. If I was desperate for a child I would NEVER expect the man to do anything, it's not his responsibility and if I didn't have his consent, why should I expect anything from him. This leads to years of mindless living and much unhappiness in his life and the world, this happens way too often which angers and saddens me greatly. I feel it is only my human conditioning/programming that tells me he should take on the role. If this sort of behaviour stopped some serious transformation would happen globally.
Right, those are my thoughts for today, Happy Tuesday everyone! Much Love x
